Getting out: or why I hate Armitage Hux and also can't stop fucking writing about him

This one has been a very very long time in the old brain pan, and finally has noodled its way out. It is a very long read (~1800 words), and it is also quite personal (particularly towards the end). I don't know if anyone else will want to read it, but it's here if you do.

It's one of those things where I think it was important that I write it for me, because I needed to get it out on paper. If you get anything out of it, then I'm glad.

I don't know how other people who ship Hux and Kylo do it. I scroll through my twitter feed, like a couple posts here and there, but in general I've found that I'm most comfortable not sharing that around. I do the same with tumblr, though occasionally (with extensive tagging) I'll reblog something there I would prefer not to lose. On the one hand, I get the appeal of two awful broken people who manage to find something in the other they couldn't find anywhere else.

On the other hand, they're both fucking fascists.

I have read so much meta and back and forth and circling around this fact, both inside and outside of the ship. There are some very eloquent words trying to justify actually, they are not, and here's why, and I do think I understand why people do that. I also know that it has done nothing to convince me.

In the modern movies, the First Order is very much coded in every way possible as fascists. They're space Nazis.

No one wants to feel bad for a ship they enjoy; no one wants to feel ashamed for their fandom interests. No one (well, no one with good morals) wants to admit they like some Nazis. I get that. I get that on a very personal level--I have been struggling since I first started reading Hux/Kylo fic with the fact they are ultimately two horrible awful people, who even if they are not Fascists are very much aligned with that ideology in the canon text. After all, if it walks and quacks like a fascist, then you might as well treat it like one.

Fascist fascists fascists.

I keep repeating this word. I feel like I need to make it abundantly clear I understand what the canon says about both of these horrible no good people. I feel like that is the absolute bare minimum required--to acknowledge, yes, Armitage Hux of the First Order is a fucking fascist and--

I still love to write his character anyway.

Wait, what?

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Meet Ugly #58 - Lesser Demons and the Days of Their Lives

This one takes place in the same universe as this fic here, and while you don't need to read that one to understand this one, I still recommend it anyway because it's very good.

58. I’m a demon, you’re a witch, we’re enemies but when I show up to kill you, you’re crying and I really don’t know what to do now -Meet ugly #58

There is actually nothing that Jajjung hates more than being summoned during the middle of a season finale. One minute he's leaned forward, watching Bez't'ial the Five Hundred Furies attempt to break up with their four member polymorphous relationship quadrilateral, the next, there is that awful stomachs-wrenching twist as he's yanked bodily across dimensions, blinking in material plane lighting and trying to maintain some sort of dignity on his four legs while he gets his bearings again.

It has been a long time, even for a demon, since Jajjung has last been summoned to the material plane, but he still hasn't forgotten how it makes all three of his stomachs want to hurl.

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